Obsessions

Obsessions? One of the things that I have noticed is a product or symptom of the addictive mind has to do with obsessions. Is it the obsessive-compulsive component of the addictive mentality? It is something that you will see on my blog occasionally, and I have seen it on other blogs of folks with weight-loss goals, addictions, etc. Obsessions sort of creep up on me. I am not talking about healthy routines like going to the gym. I am talking about things like going from an occasional bag of M & Ms to having 2-3 bags a day. Another symptom of that is obsessive thinking. For example, going to the Wendy's Drive Thru and then thinking that the reason that they got my order wrong again is because they are pulling a prank on me, or on fat people, etc. It is when I keep running into the same stinky guy who is doing cardio next to me at the gym for several weeks and I want to give up going to the gym. It is like when I got a traffic citation on the way to the gym a couple of years ago and I stopped going to the gym at night because there was a police officer who lived in the area (I would see the car parked in front of the same house every day) and he was regularly driving around the road that I usually take. It is like when a fat bastard complains that he does not like anyone telling him to go exercise.

Emotional Eating? I guess it comes down to looking for a way out. Excuses for being angry in order to fuel a cycle of negative behavior, or to sabotage yourself when you are doing something positive (like going the Slimmers Group). It is like drinking lots of beer and gaining 30 pounds after making so many sacrifices to get within range of your goal. How many times have you managed to sabotage yourself when you were on the verge of winning the prize, succeeding, getting the trophy, getting laid, etc.?? It is all the negative, non-logical, screwed up thinking that leads people to destroy their lives by over-eating, and/or drinking too much, and/or doing drugs, and/or finding conflicts with their friends and/or co-workers. We are overweight because we are trying to kill ourselves. We are working to destroy our lives every time we take one calorie past the minimum, or one drink, or one hit of drugs. So the key to losing weight is to stop trying to kill yourself! Stop hating yourself!! Patty posted a very good entry about Emotional Eating at her blog. I guess that to some degree (if not all) that is what I was thinking about here. All the negative emotions prompt over-eating. I certainly never over-eat when I am having fun at the park or doing some fun activity. It is always the negativity, worries, anxiety, fear, jealousy, etc. that prompts the emotional eating.