Almost as soon as I posted about losing a couple of pounds, I felt guilty. I feel guilty about losing weight, or being successful. I don't want to succeed.
Today I weighed 280 lbs, which meant I have lost a couple of pounds. Almost as soon as I got off the scale, I was hungry and felt that I needed to eat a lot today. I ate a couple of big bags of trail mix, which means about 2000 calories right there. I guess the scale will tell the tale tomorrow.
Anyhow, as a goof I picked out some photos of what I could look like. Which photo would you want to be? For guys, here are the possibilities:
#1 morbidly obese guy, similar to me at 420 lbs.
#2 obese guy, close to what I look like at 280 lbs.
#3 muscular really ugly guy (that's the comedian Carrot-Top, who is a real fitness freak)
#4 skinny creepy looking guy. There. I said it. I think skinny people are just plain creepy.
#6 really muscular woman
#8 insect-like, alien-looking skinny woman. 
15 comments:
i am definitelu a curve lover, but like you - when i get to that double digit area - i freak out and start to self sabotage. Nuts!
Holy Crap, I didn't know Carrot Top was so ripped! I don't want to look like any of those guys, just want to be at a healthy weight without all the freaky muscles.
I agree that skinny is a real turn off.
I agree super skinny is not pretty and isn't healthy either. Trim and musculr is ok, as well as curves and little padding. For me weight loss isn't about looks -- I want to be healthy. Last year I had my first cardio catherization done to check for blockages - I never ever want to have tubing run through my arteries again - so that is my reason for losing weight. I will never be nor do I plan to try to be perfect size 10 or a perfect 140 lbs. - true beauty comes from health, confidence and a positive attitude.
I honestly think super skinny is as unhealthy as super obese.I would rather be my size than anorexic. I like the curvey shapes, something to hang on to and a bit o cushioning in the booty.
I'm sure that skinny chick photo has been altered... her ribs look fake!! Curvy is definately the way to go
Well, as you know, i'm a chubbu chaser. Although niether of those big guys did anything for me. The muscle guys just looked creepy.
The women looked spooky too. Except of course number 2 [or 7]
Johnny thought the muscle woman would be ok for a try. I don't get that. She looks like a man. I have to go now and examine that. I mean, Ewwwwwwww....
In catching up with blog reading, I read that you were planning to quit this blog, then saw that you'd posted twice since that post. I'm hoping that's because you've decided to continue this blog. Re. people getting hurt or mad or whatever because of what you write on your blog, no one is obligated to read it. As to comments, the owner of the blog is free to trashcan any that he or she finds objectionable. Of course, they'd have read the comment first, but one would hope that anyone writing a public blog has the inner strength to deal with negative comments without getting into a meltdown (and if they do get into a meltdown, a comment from a stranger is unlikely to have caused it.)
As to the pix, I probably prefer the guy you describe as skinny over Carrot-Top. To me, he seems less muscle bound, but not skinny. I prefer the looks of the curvaceous
woman, but would probably opt to have the muscles of "Army Strong," without having to do the hard work that has gotten the woman there. I'd like to be that strong (without the work). As to the skinny chick, I'd be cool with looking like that. It would be nice to be at the other extreme of weight.
I understand with your frustration with 2007 being basically a status quo year for you. It's interesting to me that 2007 is numerically an awesome year for me (in the sense of liking the number combination), but that so many people whom I know, including myself, would describe it as a highly sucky year.
I've heard that dear of success is as common as fear of failure.
I wanna be a brown version of girl no. 7. Yeah!!!
None of the men appeal to me.
Hey I only just starting reading this blog, don't go away. I like the attitude here. I may stop by more often.
I am glad you are still blogging, and good job on the weight loss.
I guess I'm drawn the the thinner but healthy body type. But saying, that I wouldn't really mind a little meat on the bones but I got a skinny one, ha. My ideal for me would be curves but some muscle/toned not the real skinny one, yuck. She looks like she might die of anorexia.
Arlene,
The year is not over. You can still chisel off a couple of pounds if you try. I know that it has been rough for a variety of reasons, but every day you can beat the scale if you try. One day at a time, one ounce at a time. It all adds up (or hopefully, it adds down)!
Nona,
I think I am more afraid of success than failure. I already am familiar with failure. I think I am afraid of getting to success and then failing. It is easier mentally to just keep failing than to rise and then fall.
The muscular chick is pretty hot!!!
Jeff
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